Diary of a Rock Star

Dear Diary,

Last night was the most horrible night of my life. Nicky and Miyuki are both in the hospital because some people started fight. Miyuki has a broken wrist and I think a broken leg. Nicky is way worse... I'm going to talk to Afton and quit the musical. I don't have enough time to do everything I need to stay caught up and visit him and go to rehearsals.

I spent so much time at the police station... I had to tell and retell and retell the same story over and over and over again. I don't think they believed me that people could be that strong. The man that threw Miyuki (yeah, THREW her!!) was the same guy from the pizza place, the one that spewed on his pizza. The lady that was with him was with him that night at the pizza place too, but she left really quick. Maybe she's his girlfriend?

Daddy said I was allowed to stay home from school today, so I could sleep. He also said that we're going to have a serious talk about the beer that I drank. I'm probably going to be grounded for life...

Anyway, I gotta sleep... I'm going to visit Nicky as soon as I wake up.
Talk Later,
Carly

p/s BEV WAS AT THE PARTY!!  She was all weird, I think she might be doing drugs.

Dear Diary,

Stacy and I were working on our costumes today, it was really fun. It was anyway... We were playing around in the kitchen (we're being the Yip Yips aliens from Sesame Street) and mom came in and screamed. We thought it was funny... then mom grabbed her chest and turned this weird color. I was so scared. Mark and Peter ran up and started giving her mouth to mouth, Stacy called 911. I was useless. They said she'll be fine though, that it wasn't a heart attack. So mom has something called angina and she'll be on medicine for a while, maybe forever. I think Mark is going to become a paramedic, he was pretty excited about saving mom's life.

Dad told me to go to rehearsal, he said me falling behind or quitting the musical wouldn't make mom very happy at all and that she was fine. I took a walk on the pier when I was done and tried to call Nicky. He didn't answer, he's probably pretty busy with tests and stuff. I'll call again later. I saw Ramona there and invited her to the party. I don't know if I'll go though, not if Mom's still in the hospital. They said she might be out tomorrow though, we'll see.

My arm still hurts where I got the shot.
Talk Later,
Carly.
p/s Nicky please call me.

Dear Diary,

I've been working WAY too hard lately. Nicky took me to the movies tonight and I fell asleep! He's so great, the best guy ever. I'm going to make him dinner very soon. he likes tacos but we had those the first time he came over for supper. He had mom's curry too, I think he liked that. I'll ask mom what to make for him. She's been mad baking lately. Getting ready for Christmas. I think they're going to have a party for everyone at Dad's plant. I'm going to invite Nicky.

I talked to him about Lev asking me to be on his album, he said he was okay with it. How great is that huh? Now I just have to convince Dad that Lev's not some creepy old dude trying to get into my pants. Yeh rite, like I'd ever leave my first everything, not in a million years. I love Nicky more than the world. Maybe Afton will talk to Dad for me, I mean, it's a recording deal. I'll be in a real store!

I'd better get to bed... I'm so sleepy lately it's not even funny. Probably stress.
Talk Later,
Carly

Dear Diary,

I did so much today! Nicky and I skipped this afternoon and we got the pill, then I made an appointment with the doctor to get that birth control needle. (Is it skipping if you get a doctor's note? I don't think so... anyway, we got a note) Then after we got home I visited Liam and brought him that gift basket that Mom helped me make. I feel so bad for breaking his foot, I totally didn't mean it. Sara is so going to take it out on me, she's so pissed because she has to stay with him all the time. She already told me at lunch that I owe her (or else). I decorated Liam's cast, I guess he's got to have it on for a couple of months. It's pink, I bet that totally drives Sara nuts, she hates pink.

Stacy came over for a little bit of a jam session before I had to go to rehearsal. We recorded a few covers and I burned the CD for her. One for her and one for me, we were pretty good, I think. She's really turning into a bestie, especially now that Ree's been hanging out with Chia Pet more and more. Rehearsal was good, I didn't make any mistakes. Greg was kind of peeved because I told him that I wasn't going to be going over to his place after, whatever right? I don't need math help that bad. I'm actually passing now. Thank you Nicky! <3

I went for a walk on the pier after and ohmygawd Lev was there! I didn't even notice him until he started playing. He asked me to sing with him, so I did... then people started coming around and we had an audience! Right on the pier! He told them all to look for me on his new album and then he asked me if I would sing with him on it! I was all SQUEE!! YES!!

It wasn't until after I remembered my promise to Nicky. I'll talk to him tomorrow, maybe he'll say it's okay for me to do this one job. It won't take as long as the musical, and I won't have to go in every day. As long as I don't screw up.

I can't wait to see Nicky again,
Talk Later!
Carly.

Dear Diary,

I feel horrible!! Miyuki isn't friends with Nicolas anymore and it's probably all my fault. Maybe I tried too hard to be friends with her or something? I hope that someday she'll be friends with him again, even if she doesn't want to be mine. I don't want him to lose out just because I get in the way.

Rehearsal is going great, Greg is being super nice. He called me cutie today, I think I blushed so hard my ears turned purple. I don't like him like that or anything, but he's in college, you know? He made double sure that I was going to be at his place on Monday after rehearsal so he could help me with my math, that's so nice of him. I cleared it with Mom, but she said to keep my phone on just in case. She didn't seem too happy about it.

Good news lately though, Mom /really/ likes Nicky. We had a long talk today (birds and bees... yikes). She wanted to make sure he wasn't "pressuring" me into doing anything I didn't want to do. I told her he really wasn't. Good thing she sent the boys out for ice cream while we were talking. That's all I need is for Pete and Mark to get on my case about him. They still think that I should date one of the guys on the basketball team, but they seem to like Nicky just fine.

More good news, I got permission to go to the Halloween party that Ree and Trevor are having. I'm only allowed to go until midnight, then I have to be home. Maybe they think I'll turn into a pumpkin? (tee hee) Nicky said he's going as Captain Jack Sparrow, I bet he'll look totally hot. I'm still going to go as soap on a rope, I can't afford to get a good costume like everyone else.

Anyway, I should get going. The director's calling us up for rehearsal again.
Talk Later,
Carly.

Dear Diary,

I had such a weird day at rehearsal today. I guess what Afton did worked because for two days in a row Greg (the guy that plays Emcee) has been really nice to me. I guess he's not bitter that his girlfriend didn't get the part anymore. Anyway, he's been really gentle when we're doing the number and I don't have hardly any bruises anymore. Guess what? He even told me that he's a math major and he can help me with my homework. He gave me his address at the campus and told me to go over after rehearsal on Monday so he could give me a few pointers. How lucky is that, huh?

Nicky stayed over last night, it was /great/. I was trying to text Ree ALL DAY today but she wasn't answering... I hope she's okay. Maybe they don't get signal up in the woods or something. If she's not back on Monday I'm totally calling the cops.

Anyway, I have to get ready to go. Peter, Mark, Nicky and I are all going bowling after supper... Mom made us these lame matching shirts. Mine has a poodle patch on the pocket. I so totally grew out of that when I was 6.

Talk Later!
Carly.

Dear Diary,

Yeah, this is the second post today... I'm back at Nicky's waiting for him to finish his shower before we go back home to have dinner with Mom and Things 1 and 2. He's so great.. you have no idea.

Anyway... there's something I really want to talk to you about, from last night. After Miyuki left, Nicky and I got really close. I mean /really/ close. When he started sleeping over at my house it was because I was afraid of what Ree said about Afton. Then it was because I was upset from the fight, I just didn't want to be alone. I wanted him to hold me until I fell asleep. Then when I stayed over at his house the first time, it went way further... but we didn't do IT yet. We got really close and then I got scared.

He gives me all these feelings, like I completely explode all over on the inside. I told him I wanted him to be my first... he even asked me if I was sure. I don't know if it's too soon, or was... I don't think it was. Everything felt so perfect. Last night was the most perfect night of my life.

He's getting out of the shower now, gotta go!
Talk Later,
Carly <3

Dear Diary,

I didn't want to get up this morning to go to school... or finish my homework. ilu Nicky! <3 We watched a movie for a little bit, then Miyuiki came over and I don't know what happened. I think she hates me or something because she kind of got upset and left. Nicky said that she likes both of us and that might have been what was making her like that. He said he would talk to her tomorrow. I hope she's okay, I wanted to introduce her to Stacy.

Leslie made fun of me in English today because I was practicing writing Carly Belmont all over my notebook. She said I was being "so lame", I can't help it. We made plans to go to the pizza place after school, I hope I see him there. I haven't been able to see him at school at all and I have to spend my lunches in the library to catch up on all this work. I wish I could have a break.

I'd better put this away, I want to get everything done so Mom will say I can go out tonight.
Talk Later,
Carly.

Dear Diary,

So you know that I skipped school today, I got ALOT of homework done... and I think I understand those math problems that Nicky and Miyuki were explaining to me. I'm such a dork, huh? I skipped school to get all my homework done. I spent a lot of time with Nicolas too, that was so nice. Yeah, he's Nicky now <3

After we went bowling, Nicky drove me to Port Angeles to my rehearsal and guess who came? Afton! I was so happy, it's like forever since I've seen him. He promised to talk to the director about not letting Emcee grab so hard when we're dancing anymore. Afton was in Forks today too! I didn't even know, I guess he met Ree in the park. He said she was pretty scared of him, I wonder why. Afton even suggested that Nicky help me with my routine and stuff. I was going to ask him when he picked me up... but get this....

He took me to this awesome little Italian place and (omg) the hostess called me Mrs. Belmont! Ya, I totally didn't correct her. I think my ears turned a different color though, I have to remember to never wear ponytails around him. Don't want him dumping me because I have freak ears. I ordered some gnocchi and he had spaghetti. It was the best dinner ever.

We made it back to Forks before curfew, so he dropped me off at home. That's why I'm writing this now, diary, I'm just waiting for all the lights to go out so I can sneak out. I'm going to stay the night at his house again, this time I'm bringing my good toothbrush and pajamas. Did I forget to mention he's got the biggest bed I've ever seen? It's like three times the size of mine.

Oops, Mom and Dad's light went out. Five minutes and I'm out of here.
Talk Later,
Carly.

Dear Diary,

Yesterday was horrible but it ended so perfect. I failed a math quiz, one more and I have to have my parents sign off on something... it's making me sick just thinking about it. I went all day avoiding everyone, I feel horrible but I even avoided Nicolas because I just wanted to sulk. I don't want him to see me like that. It's bad enough that he was there for the fight with Ree and Chia Pet (which I totally feel awful about, but I'm still mad that she called me stupid TWICE). I pulled a jerky move because I brought her phone with me to school so I could give it back... then I didn't even bother looking for her.

So after school I drove right to the studio in Port Angeles, the drive is way too long, especially all by myself. Maybe I can get someone to come with me next time. Anyway... so my first rehearsal was horrible, the guy that plays Emcee was grabbing me way too hard. Then the director was yelling at me the whole time that I wasn't 'feeling' the part. I wanted to cry, but I didn't. I'm not going to make Afton sorry that he's my agent.

After I got back to Forks I went right to visit Nicolas at the pizza parlor. Guess who was there? Ree and Chia Pet... lucky day. Nicolas was sitting with them, probably being nice when I just can't right now. I'm still hurt. So I gave her phone back and went to sit somewhere else, I need to catch up on my math and try to get a good grade.

I met another friend of Nicolas' too. Her name is Miyuki, she's so cute! She's like a little Barbie doll, if Barbies had pink and blue hair and were Japanese. She helped me a lot with my math. I told her I could help her with the subjects I'm good at, English and History. I'd offer art, drama, and band too... but I don't think she'd be interested in those. Hey, I wonder if she takes BCIS or knows a lot about it? I'm going to ask her if she'll officially be my tutor. I can't ask Nicolas because I would totally end up staring at him or making out with him instead of doing homework (right?).

When Nicolas finished work we went back to his house and I stayed the night there, that's why I'm writing this in the morning. He's downstairs right now making breakfast.... He's so perfect <3

Talk Later,
Carly.